Lighten up about the inactivity you guys D: It's just the internet!

I haven't slept properly in such a long time O____O;; Suzue, homework, work and Akemi are keeping me up.. orz

But, now I'm happy, it's my job to help everyone else be happy too!

I'm sixteen now, it seems.

e-e HOORAY. *crawls away to die of old age*

But, I had a fun birthday <333 I spent a lot of the day with my family and then a lot of the night with Tetsuo AHAHAH 8D *killed*

Eeeergh I love him ;__;

I'm just updating because the other journal was stupid xD To everyone who saw me, thank you for the lovely wishes and gifts <3 How is everyone?

My journals suck.

I NEED AN OUTLET FOR MY HAPPINESS.


























































































I'M SO DAMN HAPPY.

*killed*

More bipolarity. <3

Things are okay again. After that one little.. big.. screw-up on my part, everything is good now 8D yesss Akemi I'm going to come see Chie, go away!

I'm super, super excited and happy, and I'm not telling you why >3>

fshhh Tetsuo you're so great <3333333333 how did I end up so lucky as to be with you? ;w;

Did I say happy new year in that journal I deleted?.. I don't remember.. I don't remember a lot of shit right now .__. I'm so out of it, jesus..

I think I might be taking a break, just for a little while- I don't want to but maybe I don't have a choice, Tetsuo says he can't see me getting better any other way.

God, I think I'm going insane. Literally. I really think my mental health is deteriorating. Weird shit is happening, guys.. I'm hearing things that aren't there, I feel like there's constantly someone behind me, I keep blowing things out of proportion in my mind and thinking all this stuff is happening when really it was nothing - I need help ;_;

So uh.. happy birthday to all my friends who I missed on the actual day, Suki, Molly, Akki, Haraise, Shinya, Dai and Jiinka .. is that everyone? I'm sorry for being out of it. I love you all, honestly.

Anyway, this journal seems depressed, but I'm not actually sad at all - just.. I don't know, freaked out. Annoyed at myself, scared.. But I'm happy, believe me, I'm happy. I'm happy because of one person who sticks by my side through everything, who never abandoned me even when I deserved it, who's the sole reason for whatever sanity I have left - I sound like such a melodramatic fuck, lol. Tetsuo, I love you so much.

So don't worry about me c: I'm fine

I love you guys all, really; when all this is over, I'll get to hanging out with you guys again, I won't let myself lose anymore friends over this sort of crap

bye!





_{so I crawl back into your open arms.. ~}